Resolution

[primeideal]

I want to focus.

I want to have enough time for the writing online, fannish, roleplaying, and otherwise, that I enjoy. I want to be able to succeed IRL, too.

Sometimes, I believe I have enough time to do it all.

Sometimes I'm afraid.

I need to step back. I need to stop "watching trainwrecks," as they say. I need to stop wasting time in communities and subsites where I'm not happy, where I'm not going to be happy, where I know I'm not wanted. Where I can guess I'm not wanted. Even if I'm guessing wrong, the fear doesn't make it worthwhile.

It's a slow process, of focusing and not winding up distracted and wasting time. But I have to start somewhere.

Comments

[carmarthen]

:-( Yeah, I hear you. (I'm still struggling with the avoidance of trainwrecks, among other things.) I hope you haven't felt unwelcome in chat, though, and if you have, please don't hesitate to tell me if there's anything I can do to help that.

[primeideal]

Hey, thanks for reading. :) And I don't feel unwelcome in chat--I'm often very quiet because the topics of conversation are not really stuff I'm interested in, but that's my decision to hang out with you guys anyway, and I enjoy it when I do. If anything comes up, I'll let you know. Thanks!

[carmarthen]

Understandable (tbh I tune out a fair percentage of the time and sidechat, although probably not as much as you do)! I just want to check, although there's only so much I can do about overall tone. ♥