Title: You're Weren't Meant to Be Human
Author: Andrew Joseph White
Published: S&S/Saga Press, 2025
Rating: 4.5 of 5
Page Count: 335
Total Page Count: 566,875
Text Number: 2146
Read Because: can't remember where I found this one!, borrowed from Multnomah Public Library
Review: An autistic trans man's life has been some version of fine, living with his violent not-boyfriend and working at one of the hives' podunk fronts—until he discovers that he's pregnant, and the hive wants him to keep it. I can't read pregnancy stories, even as horror; but pushed this far, it wraps right back to compelling. I wish it had gone further; there's a few "no, he wouldn't" moments were ... White doesn't, and I've been reading a lot of Porpentine Charity Heartscape and so while I am cheering with pompoms for books about dirty nasty belligerent body horror I've also been spoiled by dirtier and nastier; and the ending
does go there, but wants a few extra pages out of a fairly short novel to expand on the consequences.
But, frankly? Frankly, who cares for nitpicks. Icky-nasty, lit by a virulent but complicated and dynamic anger, this rips the private into public space. I'm an id-first reader, and this butts against fetish/fandom tropes in the best way, and then enriches the id with anxiety: the unsublimated, conscious edges of desire and disgust. Fantastic reading experience, devoured it, would read again.
I probably
wouldn't have read this because pregnancy, but
( personal rambles. )